overwhelmed.

College is kind of a big deal.

I came home today and crashed, with no real intentions of doing much homework.

Hey, no one gets good grades in college anyways, right?

So why try?

Not such a great mindset if you ask me. But I'll deal.

This week has been extremely emotional for me.

I cry every single day.

And usually cry on the walk to the bus stop, during the 1 hour bus ride, and the 20 minute walk to my first class. Luckily the ride at home is a lot more dry. But I cry all the time it seems.

I cry because I don't feel ready to be at college.

I don't feel ready to be left alone with out a best friend and needing to face those dreadful 2 years without him by my side (granted he doesn't leave for 2 months. but still).

I don't know anyone in my classes at BYU. There's just too many people and not enough chances to see those I do know.

I feel completely wasted by the time I get home from school that my emotions are awry anyways.

I feel like I'm rambling. I guess that's what 3 hours of reading will do to you.

But chocolate ice cream was a good reward for finishing.

Cheers.

*I hate this time of the month*