Having a missionary is draining. Hard work. An emotional rollercoaster. Something I'm not sure why I agreed to. Overwhelming. Frustrating. Lonely. Very lonely.
Sending off a best friend, who isn't said "missionary" but someone whom you love dearly is equally as difficult as previously said.
Often times I just want to give up. I'm sick of goodbyes. I'm sick of dreaming of past memories. I want those experiences back and at my fingertips. It's frustrating and sad to know that they'll never come back but only fade away with time. That things won't be the same. That friends will drift apart and leave you behind. It's just plain HARD.
This morning I was able to attend the temple with one of my best friends who is departing for the MTC tomorrow. Just me and him. Family file names. All 25 of them completed. We sat close to each other, he would put his hand on my back, I would hold onto his arm as we walked in the snow. It's safe to say I love him.
He will be a wonderful missionary.
But sometimes, I wish goodbye and being separated wasn't necessary.
It's okay to say I've been crying a whole lot these past few days.
Out of sadness and happiness. Out of reminiscing in memories. Out of love.
Good luck, Elder Driggs. I know you'll do great things.
See you in 2.
I knew this was about Ben before I read it at the end. Sorry for all of the goodbyes, but it will be wonderful when you can finally say hello again.
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